Senior-fricken-year

SENIOR CLASS OF 2009... holy mokers. i really can't believe senior year is actually here. life happens so so fast. it's crazy. well i finally convinced my dad and we went and took some pretty sweet senior pictures. and even though my mom really doesn't like my new coat all that much i still wore it for most of my pictures. i like them a lot. and my dad was just learning how to use the sweet Nikon d40. so some of them are a bit washed out but still look good. but having my senior pictures taken just kind of sink in the fact that i really am a senior, and that after this year i have to grow up and move on. kind of scary but that's OK. life is kind of scary. but i am going to make the most of this year. memories, friends, pictures, whatever else i can do to really remember the class of 2009!

thanks-fricken-giving

sons of the utah pioneers. yahoo... so today is a great day to give thanks. right? of course right. so i am thankful for the line of "you know, you're my favorite uncle.", little cousins who let you push them around a bit for fun, not having to sit at the little kid table, and a family to travel with who makes it fun (ugly cousin tehehe). so my grandma might not be that great of a cook, and she may talk one's ears off. And all my uncles may be crazy and my whole entire family be incredibly loud, but hey isn't every family? ok so maybe not. but hey who really cares? they are my family and i'm stuck with them for eternity and i just have to deal with it. but at least i have family members who like to have fun, give me red box promo cards, and like to drink caffeine as much as i do. i may not love them all the time, but i am thankful for them. i wouldn't be who i am now if it weren't for my crazy butt family. and once we are drunk enough we will start the karaoke contest. :)

contemplative

so, things happen in life that shake you up and the next thing you realize is that you are so lost in life. you never know what's going to happen next. you don't know when its your time to go, or anyone. but when things happen to make you take a step back and look at your life like its a movie in the makings, its kind of scary. i step back and think, what would i do if someone i loved died? and i had no warning or anything, just one day i get a call and it seems like the world ended. is that how its going to feel? what if one day i get a call that tells me that my son just killed himself? or a call that my little sister just got hit by a car, and didn't make it? what would i do? death is a scary thing. its actually my biggest fear. not just me dying, but my parents dying, my siblings, my friends. and what if before anyone close to me died, we had just had a fight, or i forgot to tell them that i love them. i don't know if i could live with myself. well i think i probably could, but it would be hard and i would regret it for the rest of my life. but what is death but being reborn. it helps to know the things i do. to have been raised with such an understanding of life. it makes me not so afraid.

Southgate Hardware

another day another dollar... right? haha... well i do have to admit that as much as i dislike my job it is actually pretty fricken sweet. i mean i make $7( i know its not really that much) and i only work like two or three days a week plus an occasional saturday. plus we close at seven so i can still do things after work. :) it's not bad. the people however... well how can i say this and not be rude?... they are... special... we get a bit crazy some times but the managers always whip us back into shape... or at least the boys because we cashiers( who are always girls ) don't need it. but you gotta love those boys. hahaha... todd is a freakin samurai who kills vampires. jackson is some druggie ( at least he sometimes does drugs and drinks ) but still he is comical. then morgan who is scared of girls but opens up around me. he is quite the comedian.. really he is funny. there are others that are sales associates that you just have to love. sandra, she is like the motherly figure at work. she honestly cares about us girls. jim, he always is helping us out. plus he is funnier than nothin else. fearn is growing to like me i think, i like her at least. then there are the head honchos, randy and ranel. they own the place, and you couldn't ask for a better boss( or better bosses? ) its like a big family there. sometimes disfunctional but what family isn't?